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February 7, 2009 at 11:57 pm
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There was a time I could lose weight without a problem. It was hard but I always made the effort and was able to stick to the plan because the end result was worth the hard work. It was important for me to be thin and look good. Maybe it was because I was single and dating and that was really important to me.
This time around it isn’t coming so easy and I don’t understand it since it should be coming easier now. It’s been 2 1/2 months since my son was born and normally that isn’t a lot of time to get back into shape (unless your a celebrity in which case they leave the hospital in their skinny jeans) but I’m also going through a separation/divorce and typically your supposed to lose your appetite. And if that’s not enough I should be driven to lose the weight just to show my husband what he’s passing up (immature, I know) but nothing is motivating enough. Nothing is doing the trick.
I just keep eating and eating. Every morning I awake with good intentions to eat clean and count calories but something happens after breakfast that just sets me off track. Breakfast is always good – I have a protein shake – and that keeps me full for a long time. Around lunch time I begin to munch and then I just don’t stop. It’s crazy. I just lose control.
And it’s not that its not important to me because it is but something just takes over and I lose focus of my goals. Maybe it’s because of the separation and my emotions being all over the place right now but this is something that would make me feel better and give me some of my confidence back. I think I have to focus on the rewards and benefits I will achieve by sticking to the plan and achieving my goals which are to fit into my nice summer clothes by summer. That’s it. That’s what I want.
The plan: I will stick to 1500 calories a day and to make it easy I will divide my meals into 5 meals per day at 300 calories per meal. That’s reasonable and should keep me satisfied. No overeating and no starving so I binge later on.
I will write more frequently so that I can keep track of how I’m doing and be accountable to myself. That is the only person I should do it for – myself.
I had a thought today about how fast time goes by. Right now I’m almost 35, so 40 will be here before I know it and how much time do I want to spend being fat, not fitting into my nice clothes, living in track pants every day, afraid to bump into people I know, feeling out of shape, I could go on…
Enough is enough. I need to start taking charge of my body and my health. Starting now. Not tomorrow or the next day. Now.
MATC
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December 5, 2008 at 9:57 pm
· Filed under The Weight Journey ·Tagged baby weight, binge, post baby
This is my first post post baby and it’s time to get back to writing and posting on the weight loss journey. My last weigh in with the doctor pre baby was 192 which goes to show how much my body yearns for weight as it’s only 6 lbs less than with the my first pregnancy and I thought I was much better this time around!
Although it’s only been 2 weeks PB (post baby) I’ve been weighing myself twice a week: Saturday and Wednesday. If I check in twice a week I think it will help keep me on track. Wednesdays weigh in was 172 so I’m 20lbs down but that includes Max so its not that much of an achievement.
174 lbs 2 weeks PB
Tonight I had a bit of a binge… I won’t go into the reasons why but suffice it to say that my plan is to be very good with my eating Monday through Saturday and on Sunday I can indulge with foods of my choice, but still watch portion control. It’s not much fun feeling sick from being so full but it is a lot of fun eating the foods I love. And hopefully it will keep me on track during the week to know that Sunday is my cheat day. I won’t call it a cheat day I’ll call it a fun food day.
MATC
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November 12, 2008 at 8:06 pm
· Filed under Family Life, The Weight Journey ·Tagged baby come out, late again
So basically I’m huge and almost the same weight as when I had M. It seems I put most of it on at the very end and seeing as how I’m 40 weeks tomorrow I consider that the end… but my doctor doesn’t. At my check up today I was half hoping he would tell me I’m in the starting stages of labour OR to to go the hospital and get induced over the next few days but neither happened. I’m not in labour and he told me to come back next week for another exam and ultra sound. Dammit!!
The ultrasounds are uncomfortable and the exams even more. So if nothing happens naturally this week then back we go to the doctor. What is it with these kids not wanting to leave my body? It seems other people can’t wait to leave me.
Anyway, I don’t have any pics to post as my computer is unavailable but I’ll try to post some soon so I can see my weight journey from beginning, middle and end.
I’m thinking this time around I’ll just stick to what I know works for me when I’m trying to lose weight which is watching my choice of foods and counting calories. I”m not good with fad diets or cutting stuff out, I’ve always had more success with just being sensible and eating the right foods, not overeating and watching my calories. I’m also hoping to have better luck breastfeeding but I’m not afraid to supplement with formula when necessary.
So the countdown begins… my bet is that I’ll be at the doctors next week with no further progress than I’m at now. I’ll think positively and try to talk this baby into coming out asap but I’m not sure it will do much good.
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October 24, 2008 at 3:53 pm
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At this point when I was pregnant with M I just wanted her out. I kept hoping I’d be early but actually I was one week late and induced. After she was born there were times I was so exhausted and overwhelmed I couldn’t believe I wanted her out early. If possible I would have put her back in just to get some sleep.
37 weeks 181 lbs
This time around I’m going down the same road. I want him out. I’m tired and can’t sleep and just want him out. A friend from work just had a c-section 3 weeks early so she wouldn’t go into labour (medical issues) and the baby is beyond gorgeous. I’d be ok with that. Even the c-section right now sounds good, that’s how tired I am. The thought of pushing for hours on end makes me want to go to sleep and be woken up when it’s over. I know I know, c-sections shouldn’t be voluntary and of course I won’t ask for one it’s just how I feel these days.
I’m going to bet I’ll be late again. My actual due date is November 13 so any guesses as to when he’ll actually arrive?
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October 10, 2008 at 7:28 pm
· Filed under The Weight Journey ·Tagged baby weight, gaining
5 weeks to go! Yesterday night I felt contractions, it was a tightening in my back and sides that I haven’t felt yet and I didn’t experience during my first pregnancy. I asked my doctor today and he said it’s called Braxton Hicks. False labour basically which is your body’s way of preparing for what’s coming. Which is basically a human being coming out of your body! I still find the whole process so unbelievable. How can a person grow inside you from nothing to a little being that eventually dictates your life! From think air. I guess that’s why it’s called the miracle of life.
35 weeks 180lbs
With 5 weeks to go I’m now feeling a bit better about my weight gain this time around. Total weight gain thus far is 36 pounds and with another pound per week that will bring me to 185 which I’m ok with. I know a lot of people would be outraged but
considering my hate/love relationship with food it’s not too bad. And I plan on getting back on track soon after the little guy arrives, besides I heard it’s easier to lose weight with 2 kids than with one.
At least I hope so.
MATC
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September 27, 2008 at 7:16 am
· Filed under The Weight Journey ·Tagged baby, weight
Yesterdays doctors appointment went really well. My weight hasn’t changed in 3 weeks but baby is growing right on schedule so everything is fine. Although my doctor has asked for an ultra sound just to be sure I’m sure everything is fine. I haven’t had much of an appetite these days so it’s probably my hips and thighs that are taking a break from expanding but the baby is ok.
33 weeks 178lbs
So far the grand sub total of weight gain is approx 36 lbs which is about an average of 1.5 lbs per week which I’m comfortable with. If I maintain that for the next 7 weeks my total weight gain will be under 50lbs which I can live with. Better than 80!!
For some reason I just can’t be one of those preggo women who are belly only. They’re amazing those women, I have to say. From the back you would never say they are pregnant. It’s like they shoved a basketball under their shirt. I see them in my doctors office and want to ask them are you really pregnant or just here to make me feel like shit? Ha ha.
33 weeks with 36 extra pounds
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September 11, 2008 at 1:07 pm
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9 weeks to go. Todays weigh in at the doctors was comforting in a way – no gain and no loss. I stayed exactly the same. The doctor measured and listened and did all the routine stuff and said everything was normal so that means that the baby is growing but I’m not. At least this week. Yay! I’m still ahead compared to may last pregnancy.
31 weeks 178 lbs
My good friend from Holland emailed me a pic of herself at 38 weeks on a beach… in a bikini!!! Bitch! I’ve put on a bathing suit this summer (one piece of course) but no way would a camera be allowed to point in my direction while I’m in it.
I have to say that a lot of my weight is in my boobs. That seems to be where weight likes to go on me. Last time they came down but only after like a year. I have nice bras that I’d like to wear again someday so hopefully it won’t take too long.
Till next time!
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August 27, 2008 at 2:55 pm
· Filed under The Weight Journey ·Tagged baby, gain, weight
Current weight: 174lbs. It’s getting up there. With 11 weeks to go it appears as though my weight gain with my second will resemble the same as my first: a lot. My last weigh in before I had my daughter was 198. When I left the hospital after I had her it was 174. Exactly my weight now. If I can just keep it to under 185 I’ll be a little ahead but its still a long way to go after.
I can’t really say I’ve had cravings for anything specific, lets face it I just love food and food loves me since I’m so open, unbiased and non judgemental. Once this little guy is here it will be time to focus and be disciplined to reach my goals but until then if a little piece of chocolate makes my day then so be it.
29 weeks 174 lbs
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August 2, 2008 at 5:31 pm
· Filed under The Weight Journey ·Tagged baby, pregnancy weight, weight
This month has been the biggest change in my weight so far, a whole 10lbs!! After seeing the doctor on Friday and getting weighed I learned that I have put on 10lbs in about 5 weeks and I am 4 pounds less than I was with my first pregnancy at the same time (24 weeks that time). That’s not a good sign. I gained 80lbs with my first and really don’t want to put on that much again. So far I’ve put on 25 pounds and I still have 3.5 months to go! Uh oh
25 weeks 165lbs
Since I’ve been spending weekends at the cottage I’ve started swimming and walk about 6km every day on the weekend (two times to the beach and back, each way is about 1.5km) but it’s not really the exercise that’s the issue, it always comes back to the eating!! I’ve made some provisions from here on out:
1. No more junk food – that includes cookies, chocolate, chips, anything that is primarily sugar based.
2. Lots more water than I have been drinking
3. Cut back on the carbs – the white stuff mostly. I’m such a sucker for white bread!!
Its time to rid the mentality that I’m allowed to eat what I want since I’m pregnant. I know how hard the weight is to lose after. And it’s uncomfortable being so heavy when you have to attend to a new baby. Even though my doctor says my weight and blood pressure are totally fine I still know how I feel.
On with the journey…
MATC
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July 16, 2008 at 3:33 pm
· Filed under About Me, The Weight Journey
Being 22 weeks pregnant I’ve decided to keep a diary of my weight during my pregnancy and the journey to lose the weight after. I’ll post some pics soon and keep posting as I go. Hopefully this roller coaster won’t be as big as my first with M where I gained 80lbs!!!! I shudder just thinking about it.
So far I’ve gained 14 lbs and I’d like to keep the whole thing below 30 if possible. What I’m really hoping is that my sweet tooth will just disappear and I will be repulsed by the sight and smell of chocolate. For some reason no matter how healthy I try to eat somehow an ice cream sandwich or a chocolate wafer still finds it’s way across my lips with the ultimate destination being my hips and thighs.
Part of it is that I’m pregnant but part of it is that I am allowing myself to be a little indulgent since this type of thing happens what two, maybe three times in your life? Might as well enjoy it.
Although this time I am being more proactive, I’ve already purchased a gym membership for after I deliver and am ready to go back to the gym. The gym is exactly one minute walk from my front door and is open from 6am until 11pm so there is no reason why I can’t get to the gym for at least an hour 3 times a week. I’m hoping for more but I don’t want to push it and then not go.
So the weight documentary begins (pics coming soon) and so does the transition of clothes becoming too small, walking becoming slower, sleep is more uncomfortable but of course all these things are small burdens for the end result.
Update: Here are some pics at 22 weeks weighing approx 160lbs. I will have another update next week when I see the doctor.
- 22 Weeks approx 160lbs
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